Thank you for reading, Beth. <3 The happiest moments of my life have been the ones where I fully accepted how inconsequential I am. I only wish I could grasp this truth continuously.
First, that is a great pic of you and A. I hate being sick for all the reasons you mentioned here. I too share some of the same sentiments of worth. It’s a never ending cycle that I can’t seek to break- although, when I broke my ankle a few years back and literally couldn’t do anything, it served as a much needed time of rest for me. I obsessively watched you tube channels of people walking the Appalachian trail. And now, I’m still so thankful I can walk. Why does it take such drastic measures to teach us the things we always think we should already know? And your family ran so smoothly while you were down, because of your excellent caregiving every other day, not because you are inconsequential. Just another way to look at it 💕 anyhow, I’m glad I opened this today! I needed a little perspective!
Michelle! What a relevant and timely post! I have also struggled with valuing my worth based on what I accomplish. Through projects, work, travel or physical activity. I feel so guilty when I spend a day doing nothing. So much that I relish being sick and forced to just be. two things i oddly enjoy: 1- going to the dentist and just sitting there for an hour knowing all I have to do is open my mouth and maybe take a nap! 2. Getting an MRI. Sliding into that tube and being forced to lay there still, with no one expecting anything from me but to just exist and relax.
Sorry you are ill, but it’s comforting to know I am not alone in my struggle :)
Loved this so much, Michelle. Your experimental questions at the end really got me thinking, and already I feel a bit unburdened. :)
Thank you for reading, Beth. <3 The happiest moments of my life have been the ones where I fully accepted how inconsequential I am. I only wish I could grasp this truth continuously.
First, that is a great pic of you and A. I hate being sick for all the reasons you mentioned here. I too share some of the same sentiments of worth. It’s a never ending cycle that I can’t seek to break- although, when I broke my ankle a few years back and literally couldn’t do anything, it served as a much needed time of rest for me. I obsessively watched you tube channels of people walking the Appalachian trail. And now, I’m still so thankful I can walk. Why does it take such drastic measures to teach us the things we always think we should already know? And your family ran so smoothly while you were down, because of your excellent caregiving every other day, not because you are inconsequential. Just another way to look at it 💕 anyhow, I’m glad I opened this today! I needed a little perspective!
Michelle! What a relevant and timely post! I have also struggled with valuing my worth based on what I accomplish. Through projects, work, travel or physical activity. I feel so guilty when I spend a day doing nothing. So much that I relish being sick and forced to just be. two things i oddly enjoy: 1- going to the dentist and just sitting there for an hour knowing all I have to do is open my mouth and maybe take a nap! 2. Getting an MRI. Sliding into that tube and being forced to lay there still, with no one expecting anything from me but to just exist and relax.
Sorry you are ill, but it’s comforting to know I am not alone in my struggle :)